You'd assume it would be more ~festive~. I think the world is feeling that now. Between climate change, a new variant leading to yet another lockdown (thanks anti- mask/vaxxers) , and just the feeling of lack of justice in this world, things feel so dark.
Now, of course I am going to make this about me and say, I fucking miss my mom. Not that bringing her back would save these unsolvable issues, but the simple "I'm here for you, here is a hug only a mother can give" may ease the emotional pain. A simple emotional bandaid. A simple "I know this is hard, but let's make some cookies to resemble a normal holiday"
I'm tired of so many changes in my life. My house I grew up in was sold, traditions falling apart, unable to see my family.... what the hell??? But then again, God gives his silliest warriors his goofiest battles, eh?
I don't want to be a silly warrior, I want to be a sad royal. At least then people will bring me food and let me weep in peace.
